Do You Have A Job?

Rejected

You know, I have to honestly say, it hurts when you're told, "Sorry, we're not hiring."

I'm applying for jobs again and despite the fact that I'm 25, I still find it a scary experience.

Is it normal for members of the same species to be terrified of one another?

A: "Man, that's pretty pathetic. Just a little something like that is enough to undo you. You've got to build up your resiliency. You've got to thicken your skin."

Dog Eat Dog World

"A" (represents some person) points out something important.
Hardening oneself is a common outlet in our society.

Feelings

Are Feelings and our Job separate?
Why does it feel like we owe our job something?
Is it like our job "feeds" us?
I guess in a way it does...
Does that mean we "surrender" ourselves to our job.

Job: The Monster

"Job" was swallowed by a whale.
Jobs swallow people.
Is that the way it's supposed to be...

Deep Voice

Since I'm applying for Trades jobs I find myself adopting a Deep Voice.
I think it makes a good FIRST IMPRESSION.
It's kind of funny though, because I was one of the kids on the playground who was pushed around and spend more time kicking stones then soccer balls.
I wasn't tough.
I wasn't tough at all.

...yeagh, i get a little sad remembering what it was like, but feeling is painful so I'll just:
Don't Go There Girlfriend.

First Impressions : Don't Screw Up or You're Screwed

Has this particular facet of humanity been around for a long time, or is it a relatively new form of paranoia we've invented for our particular age.

[sadly] How Many Different Labels We Give Fear.

Just Got To GET YOUR FOOT N' THE DOOR

Ah!
The aggressive approach.

A: "It's not aggressive. It's determined."

Sense Of Self-Worth

Does a job give you that?
No, of course not.
You give yourself that.

Confidence

I think that this is the answer.
Obviously.

It's An EXCLUSIVE Club

Getting a job is like getting into an EXCLUSIVE club, it's not exactly a "welcoming" experience.

Cheating

Why does it feel like I'm cheating the employers I'm contacting.
Probably because I'm not as good as I make myself out to be.

See : "Artistic Cover Letters" Blog.

We're told to Embellish our resumes in high school and career orientation programs run by the government.
So supposedly it's ok?
Is it ok though?

B: "If you're some kind of coward maybe."

Kill Them With Kindness

Why does it feel like a steel barb was thrust into my heart when a secretary is nice to me.
A secretary I just talked to said in a kind and thoughtful voice,
"I'll make sure the person in charge of hiring gets a good look at your resume."
Me : "Thank you."
Secretary : "No, thank YOU."AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY WAS SHE NICE TO ME?
I DON'T DESERVE IT!
...
never mind.

Go Around The End

Conclusion.
Half-Ass Life.
but I'm settling for it.

I FEEL like I "embellish" and "cheat" my way into jobs.

C: "[loudly. drowning out ability with volume] Ehhhhhhh! That's no problem. Once you get into the job 9 times out of 10, it's so easy, that regardless of not having 1/10th of the qualities you bragged about you still do great while standing on your head."
"You worry way too much."

Question:
Does anybody else like the "C" persona as he is depicted by his words above?
I have to honestly say that he does offer a kind of callous reassurance.

Give Your Heart & Soul

I guess, ultimately, giving your Heart & Soul to your job is your own decision...
my "own" decision.
sigh...

D: "Y'know Dave. Ultimately and Finally giving yourself to your work is what leads to genuine satisfaction and peace."

I guess the question is:
Do I Want Peace?

Final Thought:
The World Has Enough Doctors, Lawyers, Teachers, etc. What The World Needs, Are More People With Good Ideas.

P.S : I feel better having written this blog. Like I've gotten something nasty and unpleasant off my chest. I guess that deep down I know what it is I have to do to find genuine joy and satisfaction in what I do for work.
Why don't I do it?
That's a question for another day.